Saturday, October 27, 2007

Life is Good...Until when?

I keep thinking my Life is going a little "too good" lately. When Life is going a little too well, I always expect something bad to happen. It's weird for me to even say that. God has blessed me beyond belief. So, why do I always expect bad things to happen? I think it's because something always happens when reality gets the better of me. Life can be difficult.....Work, Friends, Family, Pets, Dating, Church Hunting...are things that stress me out...but in reality they are my Blessings from God! It's funny how some of our Blessings in Life can be the cause of Stress. I attended Al-Anon years ago. My favorite Phrase I learned is "Let Go and Let God!" This is very Powerful for me. God handles everything...only if we simply give everything over to him. Amazing. Difficult, but Amazing. At times, I think I can handle Life on my own. I tell God I can handle situations on my own by not talking to him about what I want to do with my Life. I should be asking God what he wants me to do in with the gift of Life he has given me.

What are some of the Blessings in your Life that cause you stress?

Thursday, October 25, 2007


When I was in high school and college, I had a huge circle of "Gay" Friend's. Now, that I am older--33, my Circle of friends consist of Married Straight Couples, a few Single females, and few Gay Friends. The problem is that I never see my Gay Friend's b/c they live all over the world...and I am stuck in Texas. Where does one find new Gay Friend's who live close to me? :)

Here's what I miss the most about my Gay Friend's:

I never had to worry about if I was pretty or not going to Gay Club's.

I never had competition with a Gay man over another man (b/c I was a GAY club). We both liked the same thing--MEN!

My drinks were always free (their Mother's raised them right--always buying me drinks even if I was female)!

The music was always better at the Gay Club's.

I was always the "token" Girl.

Recently, two young Guys just moved into the apartment next to me. They have an adorable little puppy. While we were all outside walking the dogs, I introduced myself. Within minutes of talking to them, I asked if they were Gay. They both started laughing....and said Yes. My Gaydar still ROCKS!

My friend, Richard, is stationed in Germany. Germany even has a Gay Bar named Blue Eyes. The German Gay's LOVE ME!

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Big Mouth BlueEyes

Yesterday, my friend, Robert, celebrated his 55th Birthday! Deb, Robert, and I went to IHOP to celebrate! Robert wanted IHOP b/c he can finally order off the Senior Portion of the Menu!
Robert's Mother passed away about 2 months ago. I was talking about how we hold on to so much when someone we love dies. It's the little things that bother us the most after they pass away. Robert is bothered my his Mother's clothes being in garbage bags. Robert's Dad is not going to wear his Mom's clothes, but Robert is bothered by the fact HIS MOM's clothes are in a garbage bag. When my MawMaw died, I was bothered by someone I worked with wearing the same perfume MawMaw wore. How dare she smell like my MawMaw?! :)
During our conversation last night, I said "It's funny how we cling on to the little things when our "dead" ones pass away. I meant to say our "Loved" Ones. Since Robert's Mom passed away a short time ago, he's still grieving beyond belief. I said our "dead" ones twice! Poor Robert....Forgive me for having diarrhea of the Mouth!!!!

Happy Birthday, Robert! I'm very blessed to call you a Friend, an OLD friend, a Really OLD friend, but a friend nonetheless!

Thursday, October 18, 2007

The Hairdresser's Dog.

The world forgot one simple fact: Ellen DeGeneres is Human. Ellen cried because she's human with emotions. She wanted Iggy, the dog, to be returned to her Hairdresser's family. Ellen was honest about re-adopting Iggy to her Hairdresser. In this Chaotic World, how often do we find Honesty? Ellen could have lied to the adoption agency, but she did not....She was honest.
Ellen stated she made a mistake by re-adopting the dog. She should have read the adoption papers she signed. Honest mistakes happen daily. We all fall short.
This whole situation is out of control. Marina Batkis and Vanessa Chekroun, owners of the nonprofit Mutts and Moms agency, have received death threats for not returning Iggy. America, you disappoint me.....Death threats over a Dog is Outrageously Insane. I understand people love their animals. I have two of the Cutest Dogs Ever. They are absolutely a great Joy in my life. Would I make death threats over another person's dog issues? My answer is Simple: NO!
Ellen's main concerns are her Hairdresser's children. Ellen hurts because the children hurt. How incredible is that? An adult hurts because a child hurts! Tom Cruise said Jerry Maguire stated "We live in a Very Cynical World". We do live in a cynical world. Ellen was concerned/upset because someone else was hurting. I applaud Ellen for going on National Television asking for the dog to be returned to the Hairdresser. In my opinion, Ellen did what she could to make the situation right.
What I do not understand is this: Mutts and Moms' owners were adamant about their decision, and a spokesman for Batkis said she wouldn't be "bullied around by the Ellen DeGenereses of the world." Bullied by the Ellen DeGenereses of the World? Come ON! Ellen is only given America Laughter since her Career started..I have never recalled a time when Ellen was a Bully.
America, We have so many other major problems in our country & the world to make death threats and to call people names. Did you know we have thousands of Soldiers overseas at War? Focus on the War & let's see what you can come up with!

To Say OR NOT to Say.....

My entire life I have always been told I was loved by my family. I was told "I love you, BlueEyes" almost everyday! Now, I tell Family and Friends I love them. At the end of each phone call, I will say I love you. I do not say it because I feel obligated too, nor do I say I love you b/c it's just a "new, hip, catch" phrase. When I say I Love you, I mean it. I do not want a phone call, a moment, an event, holiday, or whatever the occasion to go by & NOT tell someone I love, I love them. Life is way too short to hold emotions of love, caring, or friendship inside yourself. In the back of my mind, I always think if that is the last time I will ever see that person, I want them to know how much I care...So, I am going to tell them how much I DO care.

Is it easy for you to say, "I LOVE You"? Is it difficult for you to "I Love you"? How were you raised-with or without the "L" word? Are you raising your children different than you were raised?

Before and After

Two weeks ago, my dogs were groomed. Here are the picture's:



Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Writers Block

I have been trying to come up with a new jazzy post for this Blog. It seems I have been attacked with "Writer's Block". I heard this Block is deadly for the blogging world, with only one cure: creativity, I might be in trouble. At the moment, all the creativity I have is extremely low...almost null & void. I do not want this blog to die! HELP!

Friends, what shall I Blog about?

Friday, October 12, 2007

Burning Rubber!

TGIF apparently means the people of Dallas become Nascar Drivers after 4pm. On the way home today from, I was truly amazed at the number of Dangerous Drivers I witnessed. I even had a Brilliant Idiot in from of me on his mobile phone, lifting his only free hand in anger that should have been on the steering wheel. He did not see the Driver in front of him slam on his breaks...So, he slammed on his breaks so quickly I smelled burning smelled like burning hair. Gross! MEN! I had to slam on my breaks......and my tires caused burning rubber! It was the worst 10 seconds of the day!

Dallas, Here's a tip for you....Just because it's Friday, it does not mean you are qualified to drive like Dale Earnhardt Jr. SLOW DOWN!

I'm LOST without it!

Dear ABC,

My Summer was incredible. I watched all my favorite Summer shows faithfully...almost like a religion, I never missed an episode. Fall Premiere Week was Great....Thanks for making Premiere Week a Huge Success! I have enjoyed all my Old Favorite Fall TV shows. I even enjoyed the new shows you created....Big Shots & Dirty Sexy Money ROCKS. My Love Affair with ABC has grown over the last several years. However, this season I feel like I have missed something important. Last night, I finally put it all together. I know you have condensed the season to a mere 16 weeks because you wanted to make us--the Viewer--happy. The re-runs were okay.....I complained about them, but I dealt with them. Hell, I even watched the re-runs. What I am trying to say is this: BRING BACK LOST! I miss LOST so much! The wait is killing. I want...NO, I need to find out how Charlie, Claire, Jack, Hurley, Sun, Kate, John, Ben, & Juliet are all doing on the Island! Who is the next Character to be killed? Will Jake finally realize Juliet can not be trusted? Does Charlie really save Claire's Life? And what really is up with the Black Smoke Thing? I know my TV addiction has gotten out of hand (Thank Goodness for my DVR), but COME ON, bring LOST back, damnit!

Your Faithful Viewer,

Wednesday, October 10, 2007


Time always gets away from me! I'm always late. It seems to get better, but then I wake up right when I should be walking out the door for work. Today, I woke up at 7am. I needed to leave by 7am to get to work on time. I finally made it to work today at 8:30am. Oh well...what's a Girl to do? I love my snooze button a little too much on both my alarms! It's a sad fact that I do have TWO alarms.....Some mornings they help, other mornings it takes an Act of Congress to get me out of bed. It's not that I am a lazy person....Apparently, I just need more Beauty Sleep than Most. I am usually about 10 to 15 minutes late except for work (Since the Work I do, Pays the Bills...I really do not want the BossLady to come down on me daily/weekly). I have known to surprise friends on occasion by being on-time or even a little early.....Hell, I even shock myself when I am early! My family has always been on-time for everything. My PawPaw is extremely early for every thing. It truly amazes me....Here's the catcher: Since he is early, he gets mad b/c others are not early. When I with my family, they drive me crazy with trying to be early. The Family is Lucky I LOVE them.

What type of person are you: early, on-time, or LATE?

Saturday, October 06, 2007

Stay OFF the Sidewalk!

I woke up this morning at 7am because my dogs have a grooming appointment at 7:30. On the way to the Groomer, I realized I did not have my glasses. I kept thinking why is everything so blurry! After I realized my glasses were still at home, I was paranoid for the safety of others. WATCH OUT PEOPLE--BLIND WOMAN DRIVING!!! I'm definitely NOT a morning person....I simply do not function well just jumping out of bed and starting my day.
Since I have been home, I have put a load of clothes in the washing machine, feed the cat, scooped out the litter box, and spot cleaned the carpet. It's now time to return to my big bed....It keeps calling my name....BlueEyes, You need more Beauty Sleep! Night, Night.

Thursday, October 04, 2007

How do you let go?

It's been over 2 years since my MawMaw died. At times, the pain is unbearable. I miss so very much....I have cried on & off since she died. I keep thinking of all the things I should have done or said before she went. I should have called her the day before her surgery. I have a horrible amount of guilt because I was too afraid to call. Why didn't I call her? On top of that guilt...I even have more guilt....I should have been there when she died. I could have held her hand while she passed. I listened to my family who told me not to come. They told me she was going to be fine. The surgery had a 50/50 success rate for her broken down body. I chose to believe she could conquer the world....After all she was MY MawMaw. Why did I not go home to say I love you one last time? I have moments where I must believe God was holding me back because he knew I could not handle watching her die. MawMaw was very ill for the last 2 years of her life. She is now in Heaven with God, pain free......Praise God for the Power of His Love.

I keeping thinking of the Surgeon's who told my family MawMaw was not going to make it. How do they get courage to go tell a Patients family they were not going to make it or that the Patient already died on the operating table? How do you tell a Patients Family their Loved One is not going to be around anymore? I could not even call my Friends back in New Orleans to tell them my MawMaw left this earth too soon! When I needed them the most, I could not reach out. I did not want to even admit it to myself she was gone.

I am Strong because I am a child of the Prince of Peace. God provides my strength when it has been depleted. I fully believe the pain of losing a Loved One never completely goes away. Also, I do not believe the old saying "time heals all wounds"....Our Precious Savior Heals & Comforts. I am Thankful to you Lord. Thanks for your Mighty Healing Hands.

Dedicated to all my Friends who are Mother's.


I saw this clip on youtube, and it's GREAT.
I hope you enjoy:

God Bless all the Mom's who are reading this blog...and across the world!

Monday, October 01, 2007

Confession Time.

I have something to confess. It's nothing unusual really...I just thought I would share this with all my Blogger Friends (the 3 of you will get a kick out of this). I have a dentist appt. tomorrow at 8:30AM. I'm going in just for a cleaning, but I'm scared to go. I do like my dentist--His name is Mr. Hot Dentist--Very Handsome Man--HOT, HOT! I even like the Dentist Hygienist. I hate going. I completely stress myself out. I even cancel appointments and re-schedule for another month. It's only after I get enough courage, I finally keep my appointment. I always think Mr. Hot Dentist will tell me all my teeth need to come out..and I will have false teeth by the time I am 35. YIKES. My MawMaw had false teeth by the time she was 35. Each time I get a cleaning or dental work done, I always push my head into the dentist chair and grab on the arm rest of the chair with all my might. How far can my head actually go into the chair? It's quite funny really....I'm like a huge kid. I am just grateful the dentist understands. Pray for me---and all my crazy fears!

UPDATE: I went to the Dentist today for my cleaning....I did not cancel my appointment! Aren't you proud of me?!? I even made an appointment to get some work done in the beginning of November. I guess we will see if I cancel the November appointment or not.