A few nights ago, I dreamed I adopted 2 little Chinese girls. We were outside, they were running around causing chaos to the yard & dogs, being sweet little girls. One of them ran up to me & gave me the biggest hug. In that very moment, I have never felt such love as that. I kept thinking the whole time she was hugging me....how incredible this was.....these 2 precious little ones are my very own. The love I felt was unbelievable, indescribable. (I have not told anyone about this dream b/c it's hard for me to even type this......as I am sitting here at my desk at work with my eyes filling with tears.) This dream was incredibly real. I even woke up feeling a touch of that love. It made me a little sad knowing I have not yet experienced it yet.
One of my biggest desires in Life is to become a Wife & Mother. Some days, I think is today the day I will meet my future husband. Other days, I think it's in God's hands so I will let God handle it today. I want a Godly man in my life. A man who will lead his family to church, a man who loves me unconditionally for all my positive & negative traits. I want a man I can laugh with, who's faithful, understanding, patient. The older I become, the more likely my soul mate will already have children. I think that's wonderful. I have an amazing Step-Dad, now my Adopted Dad. I would love to become the Parent My Daddy was to me. Also, I still want to have a child myself and adopt a child or two. I want to have a "little big" family like my friend Karla (who has 4 children under the age of 5 and a 14 year old).
Today, I will let God handle the match-making.........tomorrow is another story. Please pray for my husband-to-be and my future children. May they are happy in God's Grace (and if my children-to-be are not born yet, pray for their safety into this world).