Sunday, December 02, 2007

Did you doubt?

Since I was 5 years old, I always wanted to get married and have children. When I was about 12, I told my Mom I wanted to have 5 children. The look in my Mother's face was of shock & laughter.
At 33 years old, I still want to get married and have children. At times, I am extremely excited about my life has a married woman and mother. Other times, I am completely filled with panic. I believe God has already told me I will get married and have children...and He has given me peace while I wait. At times, I doubt this peace. Sometimes, I think maybe the peace God has provided is the peace he has provided to comfort me b/c he has planned for me to remain Single & childless. Then, I argue with myself that God's peace is a gift, and I should just accept it. I constantly think "Will I be a good wife and mother?" I think I will be a great wife, but becoming a Mother scares me. From the beginning to the end, I have my doubts. The thought of delivering a child worries me...and the thought of raising a child freaks me out a little.....Will I be a good Mom? My entire life I have always been attached to children. When I was younger, I was called the "Mother Hen" of the family. Right now, I can not imagine my life with children. Children teach you so much about your life and the world.....Children are one of my greatest Joys! I think I will be a good Mom....I just need lots of courage! :)
Did you ever doubt your ability as a Parent? Were you afraid of giving birth? Does Parenting get easier with time?

1 comment:

Heather said...

Girl, you will be a great mother and wife. Everyone has doubts and fears but God totally equips you for everything that will come your way. There's something to be said for maternal instinct. If you were the Mother Hen of the family, you'll have no worries.....