Since I was 5 years old, I always wanted to get married and have children. When I was about 12, I told my Mom I wanted to have 5 children. The look in my Mother's face was of shock & laughter.
At 33 years old, I still want to get married and have children. At times, I am extremely excited about my life has a married woman and mother. Other times, I am completely filled with panic. I believe God has already told me I will get married and have children...and He has given me peace while I wait. At times, I doubt this peace. Sometimes, I think maybe the peace God has provided is the peace he has provided to comfort me b/c he has planned for me to remain Single & childless. Then, I argue with myself that God's peace is a gift, and I should just accept it. I constantly think "Will I be a good wife and mother?" I think I will be a great wife, but becoming a Mother scares me. From the beginning to the end, I have my doubts. The thought of delivering a child worries me...and the thought of raising a child freaks me out a little.....Will I be a good Mom? My entire life I have always been attached to children. When I was younger, I was called the "Mother Hen" of the family. Right now, I can not imagine my life with children. Children teach you so much about your life and the world.....Children are one of my greatest Joys! I think I will be a good Mom....I just need lots of courage! :)
Did you ever doubt your ability as a Parent? Were you afraid of giving birth? Does Parenting get easier with time?